This is the least that i can do for myself.

I'm so great in hiding my true feelings :)
They always see me smiling, laughing, playing around..
but they don't see what's inside of my heart..
and they never will..


They will never understand someone like me..
They never know how i love God, deep down in my heart..
Though i'm hoping and praying that someday they will draw closer to God..
And i know that someday..
Someday will be very good in each one of us..

I don't really know what's wrong with making friends..
I don't know why do they have to keep me away from them..
If only i could turn back the time..
I would choose to live with God..Forever..
But then i still love them that's why i chose to sacrifice..
My happiness, My Everything..

"Obedience is far greater than sacrifice."


How can i do that?
Can someone ever tell me.. How?
I've been asking myself a long long time..
How? How can i be so happy with want i want
when everyone's avoiding me..
When everyone's hating me for what i'm doing..

They never know how i cry..
How i cry myself out when i'm alone..
I need someone to talk to..
I need someone who would understand me..
But nobody was there except God..


Every people that surrounds you.. they will leave you someday,
Some of your friends will forsake you..
Some of them will forget you..will hate you..


But God does not..
I believe.. I'll be living in God as long as i stand my faith in Him..
I know that the sufferings and sacrifices will bear something.. 
Something that i need to learn..


God will never leave me.. nor forsake me..
I only trust Him.. In Him only..


Someday, this pain will go away..
This heartaches and sadness will fly away..
Someday.. :'(


John 14:27 
"We love because God first loved us."