I'm so tired..

A girl who always cry, who always smile..

I don't know what's wrong inside me that makes me feel this kind of pain..

It feels like i'm alone and no one's here for me..

Yes, i always give my all to reach my goals but then again i always fall..

Each and everytime i try to climb up, i always end up falling down..

Maybe it's not the right time for me to do what i want..

If not.. when? when is the right time..

Do i have to wait for a long time to touch everything..?
To tell everything ? Or to be with someone?
Someone who loved me the Most..
Someone who really deserves my praise and love..
Someone who can teach me to be pure?
To love all people like how He loved them ?

I don't think i can make it 

My heart is too tired .. my mind thinks nothing..

Nothing but the pain and the memories..

That will never happen again.?

If i were given a chance to go back to the past..

You know i will..

I will leave everyone .. just to be with the Lord..

I'm tired of being myself..

I'm tired of doing nonsense earthly things for people..

I'm tired of everything.. 

I'm tired. Really tired :'(

Alaala.. :)

Another song by Ms. Yeng Constantino..

Ang galing niya gumawa ng kanta no :)
So i have here her new song titled ALAALA.




Alaala, Alaala, Alaala
Bawat araw ay nag.hihintay sa'yo
Dala-dala ang pangarap na hindi nabuo
Bawat alaala mo'y nagbabalik
Hindi pa rin malimot ang mga sandali


Nagbabakasakali na muli kang magbalik
Sana nama'y iyong marinig
At kung sakaling lubusang mawala 
'Wag naman sana..

* Nasaan ka na ba?
Kanina pa ako nag.iisa
 Nasaan ka na ba.
Samahan mo naman ako
Sinta..

 Alaala, Alaala Alaala

 Takbo ng oras ay kaybagal antayin
Darating kaya tanong ng aking isip
Nakatulala sa isang tabi
Hindi maisip kung ano ang gagawin

Nagbabakasakali na  hindi pa huli
Sana nama'y iyong marinig

At kung sakaling lubusang mawala..
Wag naman sana..


*Nasaan ka naba
Kanina pa ako nag.iisa
Nasaan ka naba 
Samahan mo naman ako
Sinta

Sayang naman kung mawalay pa
Tuluyan na bang mawawala
Asahan mong maghihintay parin



*Nasaan ka naba
Kanina pa ako nag.iisa
Nasaan ka naba 
Samahan mo naman ako
Sinta


*Nasaan ka naba
Kanina pa ako nag.iisa
Nasaan ka naba 
Samahan mo naman ako
Sinta

How to make Champorado ( Chocolate Rice Porridge) :)

Hello everyone!
This time i will teach you how to make champorado by your own :)
Of course we have to know where did Champorado start.
Ready? :)


Everyone knows that champorado is a classic Pinoy Dessert.
It's a chocolate rice porridge topped with evaporated milk.
It smells chocolatey and yummy..
so i'm gonna start how to make it now..



Ingredients :

-4 cups of rice (malagkit)
-6-9 cups of water
-1 -2 cups of pure cocoa powder
-Sugar
-Condensed or Evaporated Milk



Steps :
1. Boil the rice until it is cooked.
2.After the rice has been cooked, add water and boil again.
3.Add the cocoa powder and mix it constantly, make sure that it is well- mixed.
4.You'll know it's done when the chocolate and the rice combined like a porridge(lugaw) or arroz caldo, When it is sticky
5.Add the sugar.. It's up to you on how much you'd put the sugar.
6. Top the Condensed or Evaporated milk.
Then it's done ! you'll now have the champorado :)

Enjoy eating :)

Anader wan ! :D

Do you like your name? : Yes.
What age would you like to be right now? : 24.
Single or in a Relationship :  in a relationship.
Do you have pets? :  Yes. my puppy and a cat.
How many bestfriends do you have? : They're two. Charlon and Sheng
Favorite Color? :    Green. white. Yellow.
Do you like to go shopping? :  Yes.. Of course.
Are you into sports ? :   Yes.
What's your favorite hobby? :  Playing guitar and Keyboard.. Singing. Read books.
Do you like to read books? :   Yes.. 
What do you do when you are mad?  :   I eat. I cry. I sleep.
What word do you catch yourself saying a lot ? : Hayys.
Mcdonalds or Burger King? :   Mcdonald's :)
Coke or Pepsi? :    Coke.
Summer or Winter? :  Winter. I wish.
Are you nice to everyone? : No.
Do you like swimming? :  Yes. at night.
How do you do your hair Often? :  I braid my hair most of the times..
What kind of ice cream do you like the most? : Chocolates.
Do you like school? :  Yes.
Are you in school? : No.
Do you play video games? : Yes.
What do you do for fun? :  I sing like i'm in a concert :) 
Do you talk a lot in the phone? :  No.
Are you shy? or Talkative? : In between of them.
Do you like going outdoors? : Yes.
Do you like rainy days? : Yes.
Do you have a favorite restaurant? : Yes. at Shunn's
Is it easy for someone to make you smile? :  Yes. But if i'm really sad, nobody can make me smile. Swear!
Tell me why you like the last song you listened to? : It is about memories.
What are the color of your eyes? : Brown.
Where was the last place you feel asleep other than your bed? : Here in the office.
How many people of the opposite sex do you trust? :  One, Two, ?
What would be your name without the three letters? : iah isabel.
Last thing you touched ( not computer related)  My eyeglass.
What colors are you wearing right now? :  Gray, black, blue.
Currently in a fight with someone? :   no.
Stood up for someone you hardly knew? :  Yes.
Do you have an older brother? : Yes.
Do you look at the keyboard when you typed:  No. :D
What are you listening to right now? : Alaala by Yeng.
Do you laugh a lot? :  Yes.
Are you ticklish?:  Yes :)
What always makes you happy when you're upset? : When i'm with myself. / When i cry.
Ever been on a boat?: Yes.
Last person you gave a hug? : My boyfriend. 
Tell me about the shirt you're wearing in : . It's a long sleeve with stripes on it.
When you're in home alone do you still close the door when you shower? :  Sometimes.
Have plans for today? :  I just wanna go somewhere where memories can never erase.
What was on your mind today? :  Someone with an A on his name.
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? : i usually hide them.
What IM do you usually use? : Skype. 
How long does it take to you to fall asleep at night? :  two hours.
Do you have siblings?> : Yes.
Do you get along? : yes. 
What are you drinking? :  nothing.
If you could go back 8 months, and change something, would you? : YES.. 

I cried...in pain

Why do we feel pain..

why do we have to experience this kind of pain..

Why do you think why :))

Why do we have to experience sadness..

Why do we have to feel alone.?
Why do we have to feel like there's no one there..

Why??

* -___-*

Last night, i cried.. i cried a litre of tears 

Until now.. i don't know what's this pain inside my heart 

That kills my happiness.. 

I remember all.. all the memories that we had..

All the happiness , all the problems we had ..

Everything.. It's in my heart.. 

I miss them.. i miss them so much :'( 

I feel like i'm in a cage..

I'm not free.. i want to be free..

T_____T

100 truths na :)

-Name:                          Ma. Isabel Dela Pena Nablo
- Nickname :                 Isabel, Isah, Isaii, Meow, Mingming, Bangs :)
- Male or Female :       She :)
- Primary School :        None . i'm too smart to go to primary school LOL!
- Elementary School :  Lakandula Elementary School
-High School :               Lakandula High School
- Hair Color :                 Black and Brown? Copper Red? Coffee red?
- Tall or Short :             Short..
- Phone or Camera :      Camera, so i can picture my mind :D
- Health Freak :             yea..
- Orange or Apple :       Orange
- Eat or Drink :              Eat
- Piercings :                   Ears
- Pepsi or Coke :           Coke

HAVE YOU EVER: 

- Been in an airplane :   Yes.
- Been in a relationship : Yes.
- Been in an accident:     Yes.
- Been in a fight :    Never.


FIRST:

 - Piercing :  Ears
- Friend :      Maricris
- Award :      1st honor?
- Crush :        Cristian Venture
- Word :         idk.

LAST :
-   Last friend you talked to in person :   None.
-   Last friend you texted :  None.
-   Last friend you watched the movie with :   Never watched movie in my entire life.
-   Last food you ate :      Egg sandwich, and adobo :)
-   Last movie You watched :    Lie to me !
-   Last song you listened to :   Paalam 
-    Last thing you bought :       Clothes :) 
-   Last person you hugged :     Mommy :)


FAVORITES:

-  Foods :       Adobo, egg sandwich, Champorado, MCDO!
-  Drinks:        Choco Drinks
- Bottoms:       Long sleeves :)
- Flowers:        i hate flowers
-Animals :       Kittens and puppies
-Colors:           Green, White, Yellow
- Movie  :        Korean movies
- Subjects:        English :)


HAVE YOU EVER:
 -  Fallen hard for someone and got brokenheart?   Yes.
 -  Celebrated Halloween?                                          No.
 -  Went over the minutes/ text on your cellphone?  Yes.
 -  Wanted to smack someone upside the head?       Yes.
 -  Eaten a whole standard sized pizza?                      Yes. :)
 -  Tried to do something but could not succeed?      Yeah, a thousand times.
 -  Did something you regret?                                     Yes.
 -  Broke a promise?                                                    Yea.
 -  Hid a secret?                                                           Yes
 -  Pretended to be happy?                                          uptil now...
 -  Met someone who changed your life?                   Yes, He's up there
 -  Pretended to be sick?                                            Yes, haha :D
 -  Left the country ?                                                   Yes.
 -  Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it? Yea.
 -  Cried over the silliest thing?                                 Of course.
 -  Ran 5 Miles?                                                          Half of it.
 -  Went to the beach with your friends/bestfriend? Yes.
 -  Got into argument with a friend?                           Yes..
 -  Hated someone?                                                     Yes.
 -  Stayed single for a whole year?                              Yes.


 CURRENTLY :

 - Eating :                               Yes.
 - Drinking :                           No.
 - Listening to :                      Sound of a fan.
 - Thinking about :                 Memories.
 - Plans for today :                I want to be happy.
 - Waiting for :                       a time to go home.

 YOUR FUTURE :

 - Want kids :  yes?
 - Want to get married : Yes.
 - Careers in mind :  Business...

 WHICH IS BETTER :

 - Lips or Eyes : Eyes
 -  Shorter or Taller : Taller
 - Romantic or Spontaneous : Both
 - Nice stomach or nice arms :  Nice arms :)
 - Hook up or Relationship : Relationship...
 - Looks or Personality :  Personality.

 HAVE YOU EVER : 

 - Lost glasses / contact lens:  Yes. alot of times.
 - Snuck out of a house :   Yes
 - Held a knife/gun for self defense : No...
 - Kissed someone before :  Yes..
 - Broke someone's heart : Yes..
 - Been in love? Yes.
 - Cried when someone died :Yes..


 DO YOU BELIEVE IN : 

 -  Yourself :  Maybe..
 - Love at first sight?  No. Never.
 - Miracles : Yes.!
 -  Heaven  : Yes!
-  Santa Claus :  No.

 TRUTHFULLY : 

 -  Is there one person you want to be with right now?  Yes.. :(
 -   Do you know who your real friends are?   Yes..
 -  Do you believe in God?  A big YES. 
 -  Would you change something in your life?  Yes.. 




:)

When God made you, he must have been thinking about me :)

A song by Natalie Grant/ Newsong :

This is a Christian Song of love  <3

I always cry whenever i hear this song..

Such a lovely and meaningful song..

Enjoy! 

It's always been a mystery to me.

How two hearts can come together

and love could last forever

But now that i have found you i believe

That the miracle has come

when God sends the perfect one..

now gone are all my questions about why..

and i've never been so sure of anything in my life..

Oh i wonder what god was thinking

when He created you..

i wonder if He knew Everything i would need

Because He made all my dreams come true..

When God made You, He must have been thinking about me..

I promise that wherever you may go

Whatever life may lead you

With all my heart i'd be there too..

And from this moment on i want you to know

i'll let nothing come between us

and i will love the one's you love..

Now gone are all my questions about why

and i've never been so sure of anything  in my life..

Oh i wonder what God was thinking when He created You..

I wonder if He knew everything i would need

because He made all my dreams come true

When God made you he must have been thinking about me..

He made the sun He made the moon 

to harmonize a perfect tune..

One can't do without the other 

They just have to be together

And that is how i know it's true 

You're for me and i'm for You

And my world just can't be right without you in my life..

Oh i wonder what God was thinking when He created You..

I wonder if He knew everything i would need

because He made all my dreams come true

When God made you he must have been thinking about me..

<3 <3 <3